I look around me each day - at all the people I see,
But the only one I truly want - can't be here with me!
You're going far away - because you got that call,
And I'm fighting to handle - what I can't handle at all!
So many people around me - both family and all our friends,
They're all trying to help - to understand and comprehend!
I watch them there each day - trying hard to make me laugh,
To get me to just smile or giggle - and all on your behalf.
I listen to them all closely - and hear them repeatedly say,
That all will be fine and well -that you'll be perfectly ok.
They all continue telling me - that I must be brave and strong,
And yet alone I crumble - at simply hearing our song!
I hear them say over and over again - that they all understand,
That they do know how I feel - to have my love fight on foreign land.
Sometimes I just want to scream -they really just don't know,
What it's like to sit here now - and forced to watch you go!
They just don't understand - what it's like to have to fight,
To make it through every day - and to simply sleep at night.
I love each one of them dearly - those here for you and I,
But truly they never really see - how often they make me cry!
All think they know how much it hurts - how deeply we do ache,
But how can they know that each new day - only adds to my heartbreak.
I believe they try their very best - and know they all mean well,
I know they do it out of love - but they just don't know this hell.
So I sit and listen to them all - a fake smile upon my face,
I retreat with you in memories - and let them set the pace.
It may not be helping me at times - having them all there,
But they're just trying to show us - how much they really care.
Yet, if it wasn't for all them - helping us with this now,
I wouldn't get through anything - I just wouldn't know how!
(Written by Jane Thomas - August 16, 2002)